It’s been a bit over a month now since I began my support raising journey to go to Croatia this summer with Josiah Venture and the Hinger family. When I was accepted to do this internship in early January, I thought that the hard, challenging and faith-shaping journey would start when I stepped off the plane in Croatia. Wow…was I wrong!
I have never raised support or sought out ministry partners ever before. As I prepare for a life-filled with this venture, this has proved to be a beautiful journey. Yes, it surely has been beautiful. Support raising is scary–being in a culture that is independent and surely not collective, it’s uncomfortable. However, learning about the biblical roots of support raising and seeing how God provided for people in the Bible and continues to do so today has been so encouraging.
God has done some awesome things. People have come to me that I don’t even know or are somehow connected and have joined me in prayer. The Lord has provided through some crazy financial situations. He does awesome things.
So what’s kept me going? What’s shaped my faith?
God is for me. He will never leave me or forsake me. He who has called me to do a work and share the life-giving words of His gospel will make a way. He is good and faithful and what is impossible to man is surely possible for God.
This is the Lord’s work. God calls us, as His servants, to accomplish and be a part of His plan. How humbling…woah. The weight of asking for ministry partners has become sweet as I know that I am asking people to give to God’s work and not for me. This isn’t for me. I know that the Lord will use this opportunity greatly in my life…but, this is all for the Lord. What a sweet burden to bear.
It’s all up to Him. It’s a scary thought knowing that people’s partnership in my ministry through prayer and financial is not dependant on my methods or ways but it’s dependant on how God works in their hearts. Yet another way that the Lord is stripping me of my people-pleasing tendencies and making me dependant on His strength and His ways.
PRAYER. This journey has shaped and molded my prayer life oh, so much. I am dependant on the Lord. I also realize how dependant I am on YOUR prayers. I know that prayer will be my greatest ally. Prayer is needed just as much, if not more, than financial giving. I am SO thankful for all the prayers. I cannot even explain.
The Lord is already using this season immensely in my life. It’s been difficult focusing on support raising, school, ministry, future and a million other things all at once. Support raising while doing many other things isn’t the easiest thing but it makes me depend on the Lord that much more.
I leave you with this; God has pressed this verse upon my heart over the last several weeks and I’ve been mulling over it daily. Prior to verse 19, Paul says that he is not seeking gifts but he is seeking the fruit that will come from the gifts. This struck me. Paul sought out gifts so that fruit may come about.
And my God will supply every need of yours according to his riches in glory in Christ Jesus. To our God and Father be glory forever and ever. Amen.” -Philippians 4:19
I am confident in the Lord.